Interview with Christiana McMahon October 18, 2010
She’s not what you picture when you hear the word psychic. She’s not creepy looking, no warts on the nose, no gypsy shawl. She’s a bubbly blue eyed blonde, with a cute body and a big smile. She looks a little corporate, like you might run into her at a high power business meeting somewhere. But when she starts talking, she is a reminder never to judge a book by its cover, because she is saying things, controversial things, with such tenacity and confidence that you are a little taken aback. There’s no quavering voice, no hesitation. She just knows things, and this is her experience.
I have so many questions that I spend my first five minutes jumping on everything she says, before I finally calm down long enough to give her a chance to answer.
When she was young, a little girl in Texas, and a people pleasing outgoing one at that, she warned her teacher that her fiancé was about to leave her, and told her not to be sad when he did. Her teacher, for whom she had a starstruck worship, scolded her and sent her to the principal’s office. She was devastated. When her fiancé left her a few weeks later, she had Christiana removed from her class. Christiana learned early on that there are consequences for knowing things you aren’t supposed to know.
She has always been able to read minds, especially when people are in a heightened emotional state. People ask her if it’s like Sookie Stackhouse (from HBO’s Trueblood). They must have done their research because that’s exactly what it’s like.
She’s happy to be working from home. Besides the whole hearing people’s thoughts thing, it’s too hard to work in an office when you’re trying to ignore the fact that the boss’ dead grandfather is standing next to him. She’s making a joke, but my stomach turns at the thought.
She went years repressing her gift. Like any kind of repression, you can convince yourself of almost anything with enough practice. She sees how a person could end up in an institution if they lacked a strong constitution. You don’t have to be a high soul to be a psychic, to possess this talent. Whether you are a charlatan, or weak, it can be a bad situation all around.
She does readings either in person or over the phone, but says she almost prefers the phone because she is not distracted by body language and visible expectations. Either way, after a blessing, she asks that whatever comes through be only for the client’s greater good. Because she is both clairaudient and clairvoyant, she gets messages in various ways. She has a council of guides and angels, as well as people who have passed, who help to clear a path so that the guides specific to her client can come through. She feels that they protect her, and funnel information in a way that she can understand. She is “contracted” to tell you what she sees, so the filter happens before it gets to her.
People get angry when she fails to give the answers they want, and she hates to disappoint, but she is the messenger, and as such simply tells herself that it is none of her business. All my questions about ethical dilemmas go out the window. She might try to present the information she’s given in a sensitive way, but that’s as far as it goes. The true line of information is between the client and their guides.
She tells me that of course she is interpreting, and a symbol can mean something to you that is different from the way she sees it, so she just does her best. Also, there’s the question of free will which complicates reading the future even further. She sees a lot of potential, but people sabotage themselves through fear. She says to be careful of focusing on fear. You can manifest it very easily if you’re not careful. This makes me bristle (to see why, read my blog post “F@#$k the Laws of Attraction“), but I’ve heard it so many times that I let it go immediately. The point is that people often have great potential which remains out of their reach, so she sees what is available, but you can always get in your own way.
Certain meetings and relationships are destined, but how we play it out is all us. And when we die, we are choosing to. With all of the tragedy I’ve witnessed, all the pain of lives lost, I have trouble with this, but she stands by it.
I want to know about ghosts. She refers to them offhand, telling me about a dead girl who appeared at the foot of her bed the other night, like she’s describing the delicious pancakes she ate for breakfast. When ghosts appear to her, they come in one of three ways: one, they look like you or me. She knows they aren’t human because it feels like someone put their hands over her ears and there’s a whoosh! sound. Sometimes she sees them in her head, and then sometimes they pixellate. This, she calls an impression.
I tell her I would run screaming down the street if I were seeing that, and just the thought raises goosebumps up and down my arms.
I have always believed in reincarnation, and she does, too. So how to explain the wandering spirits? She says when we die, especially suddenly, there’s a seamless shift in consciousness, and sometimes we don’t know we’re dead. Especially if a person is lacking in spiritual connection, they can have a hard time letting go, and can turn negative, wandering the earth in confusion. This is one of the reasons that it is so important for people to cultivate their spirituality.
What about true evil, I ask. What about demons? Rare, she says. She almost never encounters it. Though I want to press on this point, she dismisses it, and moves on.
When we have crossed over, she says, we go to a place pleasant and familiar to us. Then we sit down and have a life review (do you remember that movie with Albert Brooks and Meryl Streep, Defending Your Life? That’s sort of what I’m picturing here). She says that her closest experience of it came when she was reading for a client who was about to cross over. When looking at his future, she saw him actually sitting at a table of people.They were in the midst of discussing his life and progress, and he was deciding whether or not to reincarnate.
She explains that incarnation on earth is a choice. It’s boot camp, she says, and she laughs. She tells me to look around. Everyone on earth is brave, she says. It’s the rapid soul progress program. We don’t have to come here. We can hang out on the other side as long as we want. Maybe we’re waiting for loved ones, or maybe we’re just recuperating. She says she actually believes those who have suffered greatly are cocooned in love before they even have their life review, and that this can go on a while. Also there is no time, so there’s that (I have to bite my lip not to ask all about that, but for us, there is time, and the clock is ticking).
So why would we choose to come here, with all of the suffering?
She says we have feelings, tactile abilities on earth that don’t exist on the “ethereal plane”. She says their sensations on the other side amount to a sort of goosebumpy sensation, and that we get to do so much more here. Also, like she said before, we learn the most the fastest on earth.
Again, this challenges what I was raised to believe, that we have 49 days to get through the bardo (for an idea of what that looks like, think Flatliners), and then we are flung back into an earthly form until we stop being petty humans and attain enlightenment.
This sitting at a table and discussing potential areas of improvement sounds infinitely more enjoyable.
What if you’re a murderer? What if you have committed atrocities? Is there retribution? No, she says. It’s all evolution. We’re just all at different stages of it, and when we cross over, we have to look at our behaviors but the guilt and judgment we experience as humans are nonexistent.
This makes me so uncomfortable. I want there to be payment for injustice, but she sticks to her statement. She says it like she knows for sure that it’s true. No judgment. Period. Only love.
And as for the angels, when they come to her they are at such a high vibration that they can almost hurt her with their intensity. She says they are moved by our humanity, by the strength of our emotions, and by all of our earthly obstacles. They only want to help.
So how does she navigate her own path? She says she walks it pretty blind. She’s a human woman having all of her own human experiences. She just doesn’t have a lot of the same questions we do. She doesn’t wonder about the afterlife, or our purpose here on earth. She tells me we’re here for ascension. I’d like to ask her more about what that means, but we are out of time, so I let it go as a lofty concept that some will understand, and that seems hazy to me. She knows that she is here to serve and that she does her best; 2010 has been a hard year, and that she hopes 2011 will be better. As always, she shoots for the best and ends on a high note.
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